My sister is having a baby girl!
OMG I can’t wait!! I’m so excited!
I can’t take one more knife.
At this current moment. This VERY moment. I can hear my heart pounding. And It scares me. I can’t explain it but it does. It feels weak. And my chest hurts, as if there is literally a 2 ton object on it, preventing me from feeling safe.
I currently don’t really have a family, besides my mom but shes barely even there. Everyone else hates me for stupid reasons. I’ve come to accept this in a painful way.
My relationship is the craziest thing right now. I can’t tell whether I should stay or go and the pain just keeps getting me even more confused about life.
People who I believed to be my friends, back-stabbed me and turned on me when I expected them to be there. Believing their own lies and making the strain and stress even more obvious. Putting a hatred in my heart that I had never felt before. (I do have my biffle though!)
And then my health. I’m now limping ‘cuz of my leg and I am in so much pain all the time.
I feel so low. I don’t want to eat. I don’t want to sleep. I don’t want to talk. I don’t want to see anyone. I don’t want to wake up or breathe or live. The last time I felt this way, I was a sad and dark 14 year old. I don’t think I can take this stress anymore, it is LITERALLY eating away at my body, mind, soul. Literally breaking me down to nothing. And I don’t think I can ever get out of this one. Not this time.
Who the FUCK thinks they have any right to criticize my actions or habits!? Like, hey let’s be disrespectful just to “fuck” with someone. NO.
(Source: dontbetardyformartysbacardiparty)
"For what it’s worth: it’s never too late to be whoever you want to be. I hope you live a life you’re proud of, and if you find that you’re not, I hope you have the strength to start all over again."
- F. Scott Fitzgerald (via moonhymns)
(Source: babanees, via lifeofafraternitygirl)
"I think the reason why twentysomethings are so fixated on age is because we feel a pressure to be a certain way at 23, at 25, at 29. There are all of these invisible deadlines with our careers and with love and drinking and drugs. I can’t do coke at 25. I need to be in a LTR at 27. I can’t vomit from drinking at 26. I just can’t! We feel so much guilt for essentially acting our age and making mistakes. We’re obsessed with this idea of being domesticated and having our shit together. It’s kind of sad actually because I don’t think we ever fully get a chance to enjoy our youth. We’re so concerned about doing things “the right way” that we lose any sense of pleasure in doing things the wrong way. Youth may be truly wasted on the young."
- Why Do Twentysomethings Always Feel So Old | Ryan O’Connell (via blua)
(Source: juneandafter, via prepostasaurus)
Still listening to the songs you’ve sent me.
Still reading your tumblr posts about me.
Still thinking about you and me.
Still thinking about the nights I’ve stayed up thinking about you.
Still thinking about the days I didn’t pay attention in school thinking about you.
Still can’t breathe when you’re near.
Still can’t sleep.
Still speechless.
Still breathless.
Still missing you.
Still in love with you.
After all these years. You are still the one that I want.
